Lit in electric blue, Bebe Rexha opens her eyes. A crimson flower blooms. Rexha lies in the forest. Flowers and branches glow in the dark in electric blue. A lizard, lit in lavender, blinks its eyes.
Rexha puts her arms around J Balvin and David Guetta inside the foyer of castle. People dance on the checkered floor. The plum sky sprinkles with silver light.
Among the leaves of the bushes, a neon square of Rexha in the forest forms and becomes full screen.
A group of people lie together on the floor. Wearing a green lizard print bodysuit and yellow wig, Rexha dances with Balvin and Guetta. People eat Takis chips.
Balvin and Guetta sit on thrones inside the castle. A burn fire burns outside. A flame flickers in a straight line.
The flowers close. Rexha pushes two men’s faces away from her inside the castle.
Bebe Rexha prayed in an Hindu temple in India. As she spoke the words, the chaos and unrest left her body. Living in India for a month had allowed her to rethink her priorities. Although she received first-class accommodations, she had asked for an affordable option. Back in the United States, she was no longer a person. She was someone people projected themselves upon. The weight of unreasonable expectations had driven her away.
The first night in India she hiked through a forest and viewed the glowing flowers and branches. It was unexplained magic. She often sat on the forest floor for an hour, listening to the animals and insects. It reminded her she was a part of the Earth.
In a few days, she’ll be returning home. She braces herself, knowing the anxiety will start again. From car windows, she’ll see metal skyscrapers, rundown strip malls and diminishing parks. She won’t let the hopelessness break her again.
Director: Hannah Lux Davis Year: 2018