Video Review: Billie Eilish “Everything I Wanted”

A message on a pearl screen reads: “finneas is my brother and best friend. no matter the circumstance, we always have and always will be there for each other.”

Billie Eilish drives on the bridge in the city at night. Her brother, Finneas stares ahead as he sits in the passenger seat. They pass the river. The sun rises as they leave the tunnel. He looks at the grass of the farm and continues to stare as Eilish drives off the dock and into the lake.

The car sinks to the bottom. She touches the window. Finneas puts out his hand. She holds it and they smile at one another. Her sneaker becomes drenched as she places her foot on her pedal. The lights turn off in the car. They look to another. The car tips as it fills with water.

Rating: 4/5

The lights of the marquee of the theater shone in the rearview mirror. Billie Eilish and her brother, Finneas ran around the theater, playing tag until their parents called for them to sit in their seats. They shared each other’s candy as they watched an animated movie. As they got older, they continued their tradition of going to the movies every weekend. Sometimes, they went to lunch before or she helped him run some errands. It was always them.

A friend of Finneas’ had complained about Billie tagging along. Her brother had told him to shut up and the friend wasn’t ever invited over again. One of Billie’s friends had confessed to having a crush on her brother. Her friends had liked him. However, after spending time with him, it usually faded and they saw him as an older brother. The friend had tried to kissing him and rubbing his arm. Finneas had told her about it and let her know he didn’t trust her. The friend had claimed he had come on to her and she refused. Eilish dropped the friend. No one was going to accuse her brother of being inappropriate.

Finneas had found her cutting herself. His face paled as he saw the blood dripping on her arm. Running into the bathroom, he grabbed a towel and put it on her arm. She had begged him not to call 911. He told her he had no choice. She had been admitted into a facility and didn’t let her brother visit her for awhile. He continued to come back every weekend, though.

She had returned home and burst into tears as he helped her unpack. He had told her she wouldn’t be alone anymore. She told him she couldn’t handle life anymore. He put his hand on her shoulder and told her to let him know. They’ll plan one last day together. She told him there would be no final day of memories. They’ll just drive. He nods and says he’ll be with her either way.

Director: Billie Eilish Year: 2020


Pam Avoledo Administrator
Pam Avoledo spends her time binge-watching classic teen dramas and stands firm in her pro-Leyton stance. She also received her journalism degree in 2006 from Oakland University. Her work has been published in the White Wall Review, Sledgehammer Lit ,Greatest City Collective & 45 Magazine . Fevers of the Mind, and forthcoming in Daily Drunk Mag\'s Kirstofia anthology.

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